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April 3rd, 2005

07:59 am: quickly
Quickly, an update.
My dad and I have been fighting like mad lately. Last week it got so bad he yelled, "WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I? This is OUR house. NOT yours. OURS!" Oh, and he asked why everything had to revolve around me.
The other night he called me lazy and all kinds of stuff. I told him his wife was lazy, she didn't do jack and I was sick of getting yelled at for not doing anything when she don't do anything, either. Then I told him I was going to go move into the hotel across the street from Pilot (it's the one he and Debbie were in when my mom caught him cheating).

I am babysitting. Both kids are asleep. Yay. But now I'm about to fall asleep. Booo..Almost 22 years old and can't stay up past 1a.m. anymore! lol

Getting another tattoo tomorrow..Go me!

Saw some old friends recently, it was awesome. Good to catch up.

I think a girl I went to school with has cancer. I know I went to school with a girl of the same name. I know the girl was pregnant in high school and got married. But on the flyer they posted for the benefit being held I didn't recognize her in the pictures so I am unsure.

I start nights on Monday. For the next month (not straight, I will have off days :P) I will be working 6:30 P.M. to 7:00 A.M.

I do like my car.

Okie, night night time. :)

March 28th, 2005

01:35 am: 911, what is your emergency?
I am watching "Cold Case" right now. I love these shows. I don't know why. I used to hate them and hate how my family does nothing but watch these shows.

So far I don't regret not working today, Easter Sunday.

Pros of Working Easter Sunday

1. I would have been making $29.10 for 8 hours and then $19.40 for 4 hours.. Total for Sunday: $310.40 for 12 hours of work!
hmmm that's the only pro. haha

Cons of Working Easter Sunday
1. I would of had to be awake by 5 A.M.
2. I would of had to work with Maria.
3. I wouldn't of had gotten to play WoW at Mindy's.
4. I wouldn't of had gotten to see her period.
5. I wouldn't of been able to talk to The Italian Guy - one of my first friends on the internet years ago!

Plus for working Good Friday I got $252.20! That's for one day only, 12 hours. Since I only worked Friday and Saturday this week, this paycheck, I will gross pre-tax $358.60!

However, had I worked today I would have grossed $669 for three days. Not a bad job I have, eh.

Anyway- I am Monday, Tuesday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Yay! When Then April 4th I start on nights. AND luckily I am off on MY BIRTHDAY!!!! Yesss. My 22nd is coming up..*sigh* I'm getting so old.

There is a new tattoo parlor open here. Apparently they are doing half off tattoos. I asked my dad to get one for me for my birthday, but unless they are doing it through Friday I can't. He'll be at work tomorrow and my nephew is having heart surgery on Tuesday, I work Wednesday and Thursday.

Anyway- I've got to run. Got to wake up my dad in about 10 minutes. :) Leave me love!

March 23rd, 2005

10:38 pm: gr
I just had a huge freaking update and because Debbie's clock on here is fucked up LJ wouldn't post it. When I used the BACK button the mother fucker erased it all!

Ok so a lot has been going on.
Work has been going good. Easy work, good money. Of course, naturally there is one person I can't stand. This time, however, it's my step-cousin's wife's mom. BITCH. All I can say about her. Bitch, bitch, bitch.

But for the most part I like everyone I work with. There's this guy Greg that likes me. He's really nice, kind of good looking, and so sweet. I took him home one day, and I was telling him how I want my car to look like one out of The Fast and the Furious. The next day at break he hands me a small matchbox Honda Civic, like out of the movie. So sweet.

I am babysitting the girls right now, too. Voluntarily, too. lol Would you believe it is 10:45p.m. and they are both asleep? SO glad.

Anyway- on to Florida..SUCH A BLAST! I have not had such a good weekend in so long. Nothing went wrong (except Lisa's henna tattoo smeared on the back of her seat, hehe), we never got lost, and we had absolutely the best time. Beautiful weather, beautiful beaches. I just love Destin. If I had to live in Florida I would choose Destin.

Oh! My cousin Mellony is getting married in June! She used to be anti-marriage so this is really wonderful. AND Mindy is getting married! She and Chris are flying to Vegas mid-April and getting married. I am so happy, but at the same time sad. My best friend is finally getting married. Everything changes now. lol Not really, but somewhat.

And do you remember the email I posted from Josh J., the guy that admitted he has feelings for me for the past 3 years? Well I still haven't responded yet. I don't know what to say or how to word it when I do figure it out. I never really thought of him like that because he always had a girlfriend. And that girlfriend is Ginger. Even if I did like him in that way, nothing would come of it because I respect her too much. I just don't know what to do.

On better relationship news Shaun is back from Iraq! He used to my asshole of a boss at Domino's. But outside of work cool as hell. April 13th is his and Jennifer's 2 year anniversary! So glad he will be here for it. :)

So much more has been going on. I just don't know remember or know where to start..haha But I miss you guys so much! Jim, why are you never on AIM anymore. We have so much to catch up. John- same goes for you! Get your butt on msn. :)
Love you both!

February 6th, 2005

12:06 am: i'm all shades of thief right now..And I don't feel guilty at all! Muahahahahah!!.....Actually, I've seen this everywhere, even done it a few times. However this time I stole it from Jim.

I want everyone who reads this to ask me 4 questions. Any 4, no matter how personal, dirty, private, or random. I have to answer them honestly. In turn, you have to post this message in your own journal, and you have to answer the questions that are asked of you.

And, by the way, after reading all his Q&A, I miss talking to him more and more. And he rarely comes here anymore. Granted, I rarely come here anymore, but still! I feel drifting coming on.:(

Yay me! I am going to Johnson City in two weeks!

February 5th, 2005

10:47 pm: yayness for three sexy ladies
*random* I want to have sex on a piano.

I am watching Pretty Woman & it was the scene where they start making out on the piano.


Last night was good! I got to Bryan and Rachel's at 5:15 P.M. The kids and Bryan were gone to eat, Rachel & Amanda were still getting ready.

After all the cars were moved, we got settled in and had to take Alyssa, Amanda's daughter, to her grandparents' house in Vonore. Then we were on our way for girl night! WOO HOO!

I must admit I was kind of skeptical. Seeing my sister-in-law get trashed and hoochie mama dance (haha). At first I was a little shy. I didn't know how to act because, like her, I am more reserved, too, around people I don't normally spend time with.

They gossiped, sang, goofed off, we all conversed, etc.

We get to Knoxville and head to Chili's. They were PACKED! Packed, packed, packed. 35 minute wait is what they told us. It didn't take that long, luckily.

I had cajun chicken. Yummy. But I always forget it's spicy. Good nontheless.

Afterwards we went to Barley's Pizzaria and Bar to see some of Rachel's co-workers. That place, if you only want to drink and eat pizza, is awesome. Otherwise, nah. But it's pretty neatly spread out.

Blue Cats, Tonic , and Fiction (one place, basically) is right across the street. We were going to go there, but they had a Guns N Roses tribute band there. Now, we like to rock out, but we really wanted hoochie mama dancing.

We drove around Knoxville for a bit but finally settled on Liquid. VERY boring at first, but the bartenders were sexy. Very sexy. We told one of them we wanted something fruity, something strong. He gave us a sexy lady. It was good. VERY good. I ended up having three or four of those and a shot of (this here petrone, haha) Cosmopolitan., but I didn't dance. I was going to after getting drunk, but then I didn't want Rachel to have to carry her coat and I didn't want to lose our seat. Plus while sitting some cute guy asked if he could sit with us. We talked awhile, and danced a bit later on that bar.

Through him we met Jeremiah. Jeremiah was interesting. Also cute. But I will spare you guys the boring details of our convo, but he was funny. Had a good talk. Sadly that was his first night partying in Knoxville and he's moving back to Houston at the end of next month. Oh well.

Liquid is doing some kind of reality t.v. show on Fridays @ 9:00 P.M. I'm assuming it just shows people partying, I don't know. WILD 98.7 F.M. was there, too. Fun night, very fun night. Especially watching Rachel and Amanda dancing.

This morning I woke up to the kids playing. I remember hearing something about "No, Mellissa's not up yet." But I don't know if the kids just wanted in their room or if they wanted me. Usually they wake me up by jumping on me.

Apparently Bryan and Rachel were going to leave for their appointment and just let me sleep. Nice, but since I was up anyway I left, too. I didn't know it was so late (11A.M.) until I heard them tell the girls to go get in the car. I jumped up real fast because I wanted to see the kids before they left.

Maci and Skyler were outside. Bryan was just bringing Logan out. He looked SO cute. So hard to believe he will be 1 year old in May.

Maci and Skyler were outside and when they saw me their eyes lit up. I love them so much! Maci hugged me and said, "I've missed you." Skyler just hugged me.. haha I think she was mad at me for her mom going out. lol She was still up when we came crawling in at 4 A.M. Rachel asked her where she was sleeping and Skyler replied, "I wasn't. I was waiting for you." Rachel said, "Well do you want to go to bed?" Skyler said, "Only if you are." The way she said it, though, so sweet and so sad.

I hated I didn't get to see them for long. Maci wanted me to go with them, but I needed to go look at cars (didn't find anything).

When I got home everyone was cleaning. The rest of the day sucked, but I will write about it when I have another bad day. Let's just say for over an hour, while driving, I cried on and off. VERY emotional day. haha

February 1st, 2005

01:37 am: so wanted. what can i say?
So..a lot has been going on! Been working my butt off. Not really. Basically working the hours, just not really working the butt off. It's quite easy.

I got my first check Thursday. Jennifer spent the night Wednesday and we spent most of Thursday morning to mid afternoon together. It was great catching up with her!

Then I picked up the 5 rolls of film from Michigan. We got some good pictures! I was so pleased. Now I need to get my computer back (I dropped it off at Chris's to look at), then to look for a scanner so I scan all of them in. :P

After I picked up the pictures, I picked up Lisa from school.

Long story short we took Maci and Logan shopping. I bought Maci a pair of jeans and boots from Goody's for $21 all together! Not bad at all. :) I bought she and Lisa dinner, we fed Logan, hung out with him. Before we left we met Rachel at Ladies Total Fitness. Talked to Rachel for awhile, hugged the kids goodbye, and when I was hugging Maci, she tells me, "I'm going to miss you." *tear* I love her.

Lisa and I went to Los Amigos to eat and omg. Yummy! I was thoroughly pleased with it.

We went to Wal-Mart & I picked up a few things I needed and a few things I didn't.

Worked the weekend.

I invited Dad to dinner Sunday night, my treat, but he wanted to cook a home meal so that was a no-go.

This morning, however, he wakes me up and asked if I wanted to go to spend the day with him & I could buy him lunch. He went out of town, again, until Thursday, at least.

Debbie and I went with him. We went to Holcomb's, where I got my car, lots of f'ing BS there. We're going to try to sue him or sue Bonnie. Or both. Apparently her name was never on my car, but he let her drive it off the lot? He's scared, though, that we're going to sue him. Some of his words gave it away. Then he said, "Now we have a few cars out there. I'd be glad to help you out" and blah blah. We'll see what happens there.

On to tonight, my friend Josh H. from Johnson City was online! Yay! I met him in September of 2001, automatically hit it off, been great friends since. Have so many good memories together. He is getting a divorce, lots of stuff going on with him, but he called me tonight! I was SO excited. We talked for an hour and a half. Very good talk. We're planning to get together in a week or two. Yay!

Now, some background. Josh J. Do you remember me mentioning Ginger who went to Florida with me? I've known them 6 or 7 years. Josh originally was dating Mindy when I met him, then he went to work at Domino's with my mom and was working there when I started. We all became good friends, share a lot of the same friends. He and Ginger have been together 5 years now.

Lately he's been emailing me saying he and she are having problems, on the verge of break-up, etc etc. Mindy said he wanted me. I said he wanted me. Lisa said I was imagining it and I wanted him to want me.

Read this email:

From: "Josh J." <(email withheld)> Add to Address Book
To: mellie_bellie21@yahoo.com
Subject: ummmmm uhhhhhhhhh yeah
Date: Thu, 27 Jan 2005 07:06:27 -0500
frmAddAddrs action=http://address.mail.yahoo.com/yab/us?v=YM&.rand=6226&A=m&simp=1 method=post> type=hidden value=Josh fn> type=hidden value=J. ln> type=hidden value="(email withheld)" e> type=hidden value=http://us.f524.mail.yahoo.com/ym/ShowLetter?MsgId=444_349218_176_1362_473_0_1001_1025_4092121493&order=down&inc=&sort=date&view=a&head=b&box=Inbox&YY=28660 .done>

Howdy how is it going I hope it is going well. I am just going to come
and tell you what I have been wanting to tell you for a long time. I
had feelings for you for about 3 years now. I am sorry I havent told
sooner but I was affraid that it would make things weird between us. It
something I have been struggling with for qute a while now. I just
figure it
would be best to get my feelings out in the air. If you dont feel the
it is understandable I dont want to ruin our friendship that is the
thing I want to do. I would like to know how you feel on this matter I
hope it dosent make you hate me or feel real weird around me because
that is
the last thing I want. I cherish your friendship to much so if you dont
the same just tell me and this will be the last that is said of this.
sorry to throw this on you again I just hope it dosent make things

love ya
Haha! I told YOU Lisa! :P Anyway now I don't know what to tell him!
I don't want a relationship with him because of Ginger. For one they are
still together. But also, so many problems can come of this! I just need to
figure out how to word it. What do you guys think?

Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: just the clicking away on the keyboard

January 26th, 2005

10:50 am: brrrrr
Marley didn't cuddle me last night. I was sad.

Really, though, he probably would have slept with me except I didn't want stupid ugly Paco in the room meaning I would have had to shut the door. Last time I shut the door Marley literally peed all over the bed. That was gross!

Monday night, though, he woke me up around 3:00 A.M. wanting on the couch with me. So I laid him in front of me, he laid his head on my arm, I put the blanket over him, and we slept until just after 5:00 A.M. when I had to get up for work. When I woke up, he moved to my pillow. lol I think I am going to buy him a doggie bed tomorrow when I get my FIRST PAYCHECK! :D There used to be this ugly, big green pillow in the living room. You know what I'm talking about, they're used to lean back into with arm rests? Anyway- he loved it. He slept on it everynight. And whenever he gets the chance he steals my pillow and literally KICKS me off of it.

Ugh. I'm one of those weird people that talks about their dog all the time.

I'm really cold & really tired. I didn't get to bed until after 1:00 A.M. and had to get up at 6:30 to get Marc off to school. I was going to go back to sleep, but I figured I needed up by 10 or 11 A.M. anyway so I would just stay up and go to bed early tonight. Know why? Because I have to get up at 6:30 A.M. again tomorrow to take the kids to school!

I am taking the kids to school then I am taking a nap. Around 12 I am going to get up, shower, get pretty, then at 1P.M. I am going to get my check, cash it, go to Wal-Mart and pick up the SEVEN rolls of film we dropped off from Michigan!

After I pick up the film I need to go pick up Lisa. We're going to go straight to Bryan's, get the kids, go to Chik-Fil-A and feed them. Afterwards we're going to Los Amigos to feed me..I am So excited! I've been tasting Nachos Machos all week long.

I think I am going to go shopping, too. Since I have to work all weekend long I think I am going to go the mall Thursday with the kids then we can drive to NOVA and drop the kids off with Rachel.

Anyway- boring entry. Sorry. I'm going to go shower and call Jennifer. Definitely taking a nap when I get home. Wasn't going to, but I am. lol

By the way- if I remember - be expecting a LONNNNNGGGGGG ass survey! I don't expect anyone to read it, just want to do it. 200+ questions. :P

Have a good day!

Current Mood: coldcold
Current Music: 'Boulevard of Broken Dreams' - Green Day

January 23rd, 2005

04:57 am: horny. i like that word.
hm. OD is going weird on me again. Any surprises there? Hm. No.

Today I did absolutely nothing. I woke up at 1P.M. feeling like I hadn't slept one little ounce, but in reality I slept at least 8 hours. Here I am again at 4:02 A.M., freezing my butt off, and getting ready to activate the application for a part-time cuddler again. Anyone interested?

I also realize I am so far behind on moving entries over from my other diary to here. Oops. My bad. I forgot I was doing it.

Back to today...That's right. Nothing happened.

I literally was lazy ALL day except for when I had to go get cigs for Debbie, Lisa, and me. Dad said he would start the Jeep for me and I'm thinking, "Why? It was really warm yesterday so it must have been warm today." WRONG! I walk outside and it's snowing like mad. The whole trip to the gas station was horrible due to wind. Standing outside of the little box waiting for the cashier's to get the cigarettes, get my check, then give me my stuff I about froze to death.

While I was standing there, out of the corner of my eye a guy in a doo-rag, leather chaps, leather vest, and a few tattoos comes up behind me and says something like, "They getting the cigarettes?" Phew. It was just my dad.

So I come home, Lisa calls not long after and says she got off early. She brings home .. *pause*

I swear a mouse just ran past my feet! I hear it. The little butstard loves Lisa's room for some reason. It's behind the desk, near the t.v. Why did Lisa have to look in the garbage bag? WHY? We could have had it!

Anyway- she brings home some cheesebread from work, we buy I, Robot off the TiVo, and be lazy. Marley curled up on the couch with me during the movie. I love when he puts his head on the pillow. I can definitely hold off having a boyfriend, getting married, and having kids as long as he is with me..haha I'm lame.

After the movie, I came here. And I've been here for over 4 hours. Want to know what I was doing? Reading ONE person's diary! Yup. Just one person.

I should have been looking up VISAs, how to obtain one, the cost, how long they're good for, etc. I don't want to buy my ticket to Australia until I know they'll let me in! I am going to apply for my VISA first. Once I get it, I'll get my passport, assuming it's good as long as my VISA is. Then when I have the $1601 I'll purchase my ticket. I can save spending $$ after I purchase my ticket.

Anyway- it's now 4:05 A.M. & I really need to go to bed. But I fear Debbie is still up watching t.v. I really need to move out soon. I hate my bedroom being a living room.

Night ya'll.

January 19th, 2005

08:39 pm: my week
Don't have time to write. I wanted to be asleep by 9:00 P.M. & it's 8:41 P.m. right now. I haven't even cooked dinner yet!

So to highlight my week:
1) Started work. Love it and hate it all at the same time. Go figure!
2) My feet are starting not to hurt as bad. They usually start hurting close to my 4 o'clock break (I work 12 hour shifts).
3) I'm sicker than a freaking dog. I feel worse than shit, if that is possible. I woke up the other morning whining for my mommy! And tonight I was praying my dad would be home, but nope. Not lucky. Oh well.
4) I had Monday and Tuesday off. Spent literally all day Monday and most of the day Tuesday babysitting. Did not help the sickness factor, at all! But I am off the weekend and am NOT babysitting! I am doing nothing.
5) Our heat isn't working. It's registering that it is 60 something degrees in here. Also not helping being sick.

But now it is 8:44P.M. and I've gotta cook..Ciao!

January 9th, 2005

12:20 am: Australia...
I am going to Australia!
Even if it means I have to save for 8 months instead of 6, I AM GOING! As soon as I get myself to where I am comfortable (financially, emotionally, looks), I AM going..hehe
Been talking about all night with my friend, Eric. I am going.
I am going.
I am going.


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